While finding a new way requires risk taking, it does not require abandoning or distancing ourselves from the past, which in the fad of positivity and a culture of duality we are all too often encouraged to do. Instead, integrity, or wholeness, includes all of our wounds, our living, our triumphs—our authentic-self does not sit in judgment of the other within, or without our SELVES.
After having a dream of hugging my Dad, not in his old-state-self, the one I grew up fearing and longing for whose mind still worked and yet turned against me, or so I thought, but the old, decrepit man, the one who has suffered a stroke and can’t make simple connections, find things, figure out how to button up his own shirt or untangle a wire.
I first saw it come up as I took a web building class at the community college, my heart swelled with the knowledge that since being a child, I’ve always said if I were any animal it would be a crocodile or an alligator! Not just because my eyes are gold/green, but because I am long and fierce in my love and loyalty! And, just because kids know things like that, without thinking, without having to prove how or why.